There were so many things that I would do differently when I was born that I was premature and I was put on so many medicines. My parents really never look my way said hey let me show you how you do this it was like this you do it yourself I can remember from the very day that I was born my parents 24/7 always kept fighting I would be sleeping I would always try to get out of the house and I can remember having the biggest smile every time I went to my friend’s house but the things that I did not have all through my childhood was respect and patience and knowledge my a first real learning experience for me came when I was 11 years old I was at school and just for a little more about me I used to get real mad like if you just forgot to do something for or get something to eat I would get mad back to the story I was mad at my dad because I lost my money that granny gave and it made me mad and went to school like that and the teachers at corbin well Jacobs mad we should talk to him and see what’s going on they did do that they put in a room all day and that just made me mad more and you ever somebody say I rather kill me than go in not meaning just figure of speech, that’s what happened with me and I learned that from that experience was watch what you say in front of people knowing what i know right now would never done that but I was not doing anything wrong I was wanting somebody to listing to me and the people who was listening to me, they used what was going through threw me out the door the whole experience just made me feel like nobody cares all of these teachers and doctors and counselor my problem was I did not how to tell people how I feel because nobody ever took me aside and taught me anything was like somebody that was just trying to stay above water and not sink. The next time I was faced with another war was I was 12 years old I was so angry at my parents because my mom promised me that she would never drink, and she would fight for me, and Hannah and my dad promise me the same thing and then my mom and dad got persimmon from the court, and we were supposed to go this Halloween thing that night my mom was drunk and I was so heartbroken and hurt instead of being wise and patient with her I lash out and say things to her I wish could take it all back this would be the last time I and mom would be in the same room she was put hospital 4 months later I was 13 when this happened but before she was hospitalized she was trying to talk to me and I was having none of it and the The last time we could have gone out as a family my sister went with them I did not go and the next thing I know my mom was put in the hospital/then I can remember I did not want her to pass thinking that I hated I wanted her to know that I did not hate her that loved her I never got a chance year later she passed away my entire world just explode because it about broke me everybody kept telling me that I had every right to be mad at her I did look at that way all I wanted to do was pick the phone and call my mom I love you every time I would cry my eyes out I can remember my teacher pulled me aside and told me to take as a learning experience he said that my mom knew that did not hate her she knew that I loved her so learned to cherish my family more and don’t jump the gun on anybody anymore.
